CHANGE

'We all get broken. That's how the light gets in'Ernest Hemingway

Life is not stationary. Nothing is ever set in stone, it is always flowing, changing like a river changes course. Change is not always comfortable or easy. We are creatures of habit, we create routines and get comfortable in them, they create a sense of security. When things change and our daily lives change it may feel like the rug has been pulled from beneath our feet but it can be a gift, it gives us a chance to re-evaluate where you are in life and what you want to create for yourself out of your time on this Earth.

We are a quarter into 2018 and I am taking a look at the goals I set myself 4 months ago seeing as a lot has changed since then. I was angry at first, upset and felt defeated but now I choose to look at it as a gift, an opportunity to make change before things get too comfortable. Not only am I having a rethink about my life direction, but I am changing the way I look at myself and perceive my body. Every time I go through a rough patch it is the one thing I focus all of my attention on, I think if I can fix my body I can fix my life. Doesn't work that way. So this month I am turning to gratitude, instead of worrying about what could go wrong it is time to focus on what could go right and what is good right now...exactly where I am

• So what if life doesn't go as I planned...I am so grateful I have options, I have a job (an income) I have the luxury of choice

• So what if I have to move back in with my parents...I'm so grateful they are willing let me move back in, I will be able to save some money and it'll help with the loneliness

• So what if I've gained a little weight and I think I look a little 'softer' around the middle...I am super grateful I have a healthy, able body. That I exercise because it makes me feel good not because I hate my body (this is a point which fluctuates - body love yet to come, acceptance is something I am starting to embrace)

• So what if people leave...people will constantly come and go from your life. Some are set to stay, some will come and go, some were only ever meant to be there for a finite period of time and if there is one thing I have learnt it is that you can't make people stay

Things don't 'go wrong' because we are broken or because there is something wrong with us, things go wrong because life happens and what matters is how we deal with the curve ball. When you are the victim you are letting something other than you have the power to make you feel bad and when you let things over than you dictate how you feel, you are giving away your power. Anytime you feel like a victim, the way to regain your power is to own your part in the situation. You are responsible for your experiences in life.